my king

I want to fall in love with You like a child..

all over again, all over again
like a child..

It will always be easy for me to just walk away. But I am taking the hard path here, to stay and continue on. Even when the wind felt much stronger than it actually is.

How much longer.. how much longer.. will I walk in this desert. These sheeps need food.. they need water and I am not wise enough to lead them.

So here I am

It's interesting to see how everyone is doing after graduation. Some still looking for jobs, some already working offshore- Tokyo, China, Dubai, etc. Some took a time off to figure 'life'. It's tough esp after the economic breakdown to even think of a job. Perhaps graduate school was the only option for some of us, which then makes applying a bad idea.

In a way, my life unfolds at His perfect timing. I have never come close to understanding His Grace until this point. It was favor upon favor, who would have thought I would get a job that I didn't even apply for and a salary I didn't even deserve a few days after my OPT activates? At this point when there're more demand than market, he could have easily hired anyone, whom I am sure will be much better than me. Surely these things, I know better as I know how much I am capable of, are wayy beyond my capabilities, beyond my control.

As I am learning my own independence, earning my own money and sucking up to my boss's anger, life hasn't really been a stroll in a park. Often times I find myself weak on my knees, already crying and ready to give up. God promised to make us prosperous but He didn't promise it will be easy.

In my weaknesses, God draws closer to me. His Grace and strength continously poured in as I am learning 'the hard way' to find joy and happiness in Him alone.

“I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear, But now my eye sees You." Job 42:5